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noreply@blogspirit.com (The details of my life are quite inconsequential) — Mon, 02 Jan 2006 14:05:16 -0600

Now that we're a few days into the New Year, I thought I'd take a moment to bid a less than fond farewell to 2005.

Ahhhh, 2005 ...all in all I have to admit that it won't be missed. Some of my friends agree with me that 2005 proved to be a somewhat less than shining year in our lives. While I consider myself far removed from a state of eternal optimism, even I've found my normal gray outlook of things to be even darker than usual. Career derailment, economic travails, unrelenting loneliness, parental failing health ...these are just some of the personal highlights from the past 12 months. I find that I view 2005 as one of the worst years of my life. Certainly in the top (or bottom as the case may be) three ...(the others being 1988-the year my father died, and 1994-which held the dual honor of being the year I was laid off from my first job which I'd held for 11 years, and also the year that The Demon Bitch From Hell announced that she'd been impregnated by another guy ...but that's another story).

For others wthin my group of friends you can throw in familial passing, romantic uncoupling, and abandoned friendships. Yes ...2005 can't fade into the forgotten mists of time fast enough (at least as far as I'm concerned).

I can't imagine 2006 being any worse (well, actually I can, but I'm trying my hardest not to sink any further into the depths of darkness and despair). That being said, against my better judgment (and even though I was awake most of last night worrying about the future) I surprisingly find myself being somewhat hopeful for the New Year. We shall see if this flickering light at the end of the tunnel comes to pass, but for now I'm crossing my fingers and tentatively stepping down the path towards what will (hopefully) be better times. For now though, to 2005 I simply say so long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye ...you sucked.

My, how time flies

noreply@blogspirit.com (The details of my life are quite inconsequential) — Tue, 08 Nov 2005 20:30:00 -0600

Yow! It's been almost a month and a half since my last posting. I've been somewhat remiss due to the whirlwind of activity that has surrounded my life. Let's see ...where to begin?

New and exciting job? ...Ummm, no ...still unemployed with the walls starting to close in.

Possible prospects to achieve a new and exciting job? ...Ummm ...well ...multiple resumes sent to multiple companies with little in the way of responses. They say that no news is good news but somehow I don't think that platitude holds true here.

Still, no worries ...at least there's the comfort of being able to draw from the severance package from my last employer and the steady flow of unemployment. ...Ummm, yeah ...that's not quite the case. The coffers are almost bare with unemployment set to expire within a few weeks. A pity really, since I've often equated obtaining material possessions with happiness (or at least an unreasonable facsimile of happiness), but the budget these days limits pursuit of that. The way it stands now I'll be out on the streets just about the time that the snow starts falling. Yes, timing is everything.

Well, at least there's the heady rush of romance in the air. ...Ummm, yeah ...not quite the case. Still flying in the same solo pattern that I have for the last few years, with no prospects on, above, beneath, or alongside the horizon. It's times like these that I almost start wishing that I had voices in my head ...at least that way I'd be talking with someone other than myself.

Did I say I haven't been posting due to the whirlwind of activity surrounding my life? Oops ...I meant due to the ever-present state of hopelessness and apathy that I find myself entrenched in ...my mistake. On the plus side, at least my name isn't 'Scooter' ...then I'd really be depressed.

"If you have a college degree you can be absolutely certain of one thing ...that you have a college degree"

noreply@blogspirit.com (The details of my life are quite inconsequential) — Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:49:05 -0500

Well ...it's twenty-some years later and I find myself re-entering the hallowed halls of collegiate learning. Having never completed my Bachelor's degree many moons ago (the University of Wisconsin and I had a difference of opinion re/expectations ...they expected me to go to class and pass exams and I expected to go out most nights and sleep in the next morning) I've hesitantly enrolled at Edgewood College under their adult accelerated program to work towards getting a Bachelor of Business Administration degree (BBA).

We'll see what happens. I'm not completely keen on dropping the amount of money necessary, but then again many (if not most) managerial jobs look for applicants to have a Bachelor degree (I guess having a piece of paper is more important than a proven track record of achieving managerial-level positions at most all of your previous places of business ...oh well ...what are you going to do?).

The program is structured into seven week sessions and I'll be taking one class a session, which equates to one night a week (perhaps I'll take two classes a session somewhere down the road, but with trying to find a new job and weaning myself back into a study-mode type frame of mind, I figure one is fine for now). Perhaps to better prepare myself for my return to academia I should queue up 'Animal House' on dvd, just to become reacquainted with college-life?

"Happy Windsday Eeyore!"

noreply@blogspirit.com (The details of my life are quite inconsequential) — Wed, 11 May 2005 00:55:00 -0500

Having recently been excommunicated from my place of employment, I find that my world is without the motivational catchphrases that appeared on posters and cards within the work environment. While searching the web for that which was lacking I came upon a site that matches my outlook just a bit more closely, Despair.com. You can find it here or in my links section.

A few of the stirring quotes contained therein on various types of merchandise include:

Adversity - That which does not kill me postpones the inevitable.

Hazards - There is an island of opportunity in the middle of every difficulty. Miss that, though, and you're pretty much doomed.

Indifference - It takes 43 muscles to frown and 17 to smile, but it doesn't take any to just sit there with a dumb look on your face.

Irresponsibility - No single raindrop believes it is to blame for the flood.

Loneliness - If you find yourself struggling with loneliness, you're not alone. And yet you are alone. So very alone.

Motivation - If a pretty poster and a cute saying are all it takes to motivate you, you probably have a very easy job. The kind robots will be doing soon.

Pessimism - Every dark cloud has a silver lining, but lightning kills hundreds of people each year who are trying to find it.

Trouble - Luck can't last a lifetime unless you die young.

I know what my friends are getting for Christmas this year.

The cover for Jessica Simpson's new single "Bang, Bang, My Baby Shot Me Down"?

noreply@blogspirit.com (The details of my life are quite inconsequential) — Wed, 11 May 2005 00:15:00 -0500

I can't think of a better poster child for gun control.